So......for the first time in my life I have to take care of myself. That means that I have to cook, wash, clean, shop. I have been home alone only once and I was on vacantion, so it definitely was easier. I woke up when I wanted to, I went out to eat, went out with my friends, went to my aunt's to eat or bought something from a fast food.
But now my mom is going to be in the hospital for 2 weeks and I am on my own. I am not actually home alone, my mom's husband and his son are at home, but it will be like I were alone.
But now I am working and I will have to wake up earlier to make my sandwiches, then from work I will have to go shopping, get home and cook something.
And , yes, my mom still makes my sandwiches in the morning, she still cooks for me and does my laundry, even if I am 23, very soon 24. She doesn't work and since she is all day long at home it is normal that she does all that for me.
And she has always been like that. Don't get me wrong: I now how to cook ( I won't starve to death), I can do my own laundry ( I often do that to help my mom), I clean the house although I am allergic to dust, I love to go to the market to do some shopping. But my mom is a bit overprotective and when I was little, even though she always asked for my help and made me some work around the house, she never let me do too much.
I am a bit scared because she will be in hospital and this hospital is out of the town and what if she needs me, or needs something quickly?
And again I am having these bad dreams about my dad and she is the only one who can calm me down and take care of me when I am having anxiety atacks.
I have the best mom in the world. I have never seen anyone like her, so good, so caring, gentle, loving, amusing, kind.
Thank you mom. I love you!