HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I am going away for a few days to Turkey :) and I won't "see" you until next year.
So I wish you a Happy New Year. May you find what you are looking for. Health, happiness, good luck, love, friendship, peace, harmony....................................and whatever you are wishing for.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Gama

Thank you.
You are right,it's too hard to be just friends. I would try(I don't know if he would), but I know I wouldn't succeed.
Once they are gone, they are gone forever. Some people,yes. But not him. He is the first man I ever loved, and I guess I will always feel something for him, he will always be a part of my soul, a part of me. I wish I wouldn't feel like that because sometimes it hurts.
Anyway........Christmas is just around the corner!
Merry Christmas!

H.I.M.

Love's icy tomb dug open for you
Lies in a cemetery that bears my name
Love's violent tune from me to you
Rips your heart out and leaves you bleeding
With a smile on your face

Again

I saw him again last night. The man I loved. The man I think I have loved all my life, even when I thought I didn't love him. There he stood, in front of me, smiling and I.............I didn't feel for him love...........but there was something in my heart........ I am still attracted to him, I still like him, I don't think I love him like I used to, but I will always love him in my way.

STRANGE

I feel strange. Everything around me is so new, but at the same time so old, so deja-vu.
I've been having this feeling for a while now. Yesterday when a colegue of mine entered the room I felt like he stood there and did those things somewhere in the past and I see them again. Strange. I feel like I live again and again some events. And maybe I do. Maybe I have to relive them until I get them right , until I stop doing the same mistake. But where do I go wrong, what is my mistake???
Maybe I should take more chances, maybe I shouldn't be so afraid of getting hurt, of making mistakes...........we all have to make mistakes and learn from them.
I SHOULDN'T BE AFRAID TO TAKE MORE CHANCES!!!!!!!!!!

:)

I have been so happy today! Life is good.
And people smiled at me today more than they usually do. And I smiled back.
I hope it snows soon.

It hurts!

I have just realized that I haven't written too much about the good things in my life.
Today I won't do that either.
Last night I was talking to my mom and she said that during the time when she was pregnant with me , she was never happy. She was never spoiled and loved like most pregnant women are, no one showed her that she was loved and needed, no one hugged her,kissed her, carressed her.
My father didn't do that! I guess he never loved me. Or he never loved me enough. When you want a child, I think that you show your love for that child even if you don't love the woman who carries that child. If he didn't want me, then why did he accept to have me? Was it because my mom wanted to have me? Because I know how much my mom loves me. Her love is one of the few things in my life that I am sure of!
My father didn't love me!!!
I realized that yesterday night. He did't want me.
I have nice memories about him. But I don't remember a moment when I felt he loved me. A gesture, a sign, something..............I don't remember that