My 1oo things..................

1. I was born on May 22nd 1981.
2. I was born on my father’s birthday.
3. I am a real Gemini.
4. I wish I had an identical twin.
5. I am short, blonde and I have blue eyes.
6. Both my parents have green eyes.
7. 2 of my grandparents had blue eyes.
8. My grandfather is Greek.
9. I am incredibly proud of being Romanian.
10. When I was a kid I used to climb the trees in my grandma’s yard and look in the distance for hours, especially at sunset.
11. When I got scared, I always climbed the walnut tree.
12. I went to school from the 1st to the 12th grade with the same 2 girls.
13. I met my best friend in the 2nd grade. I don’t really remember that moment. She does. We still are best friends.
14. I speak 3 foreign languages: English , Spanish and French.
15. Once I ran away from home. For a few hours :)
16. I almost died 5 years ago in a car accident. The car was completely destroyed.
17. I graduated from college in 2004. I passed my final exams one year later. Sooo lazy.
18. I started my first job in September 2004.
19. Sometimes I have anxiety attacks because of the post-traumatic shock I haven't got over yet.
20. I am allergic to spiders, dust, pollen and fur.
21. But I love animals.
22. Because of my allergies I couldn’t breathe through my nose for a year. I was addicted to nasal-drops.
23. I had a tiny turtle. It died.
24. I am not very ambitious. Unfortunately.
25. I am not a morning person
26. I tend to avoid confrontations.
27. I am diplomatic.
28. I am unsure of myself.
29. I need to show affection to people.
30. I am friendly. Too friendly.
31. I focus too much on others.
32. It is difficult to me to take it easy.
33. I worry too much.
34. I couldn’t live without MUSIC.
35. I love to dance.
36. I like rain, lightening, storms, snow, summer, autumn.
37. I love traveling.
38. I like tulips and roses.Especially yellow ones.
39. I can’t be angry at someone for a long time.
40. I am not very good with numbers.
41. I love to read.
42. I like to study.
43. I love to have fun even more.
44. I am afraid of loneliness.
45. I like to walk bare-footed in the grass.
46. I love going to the park and look at people. Especially children. And handsome men :))
47. I talk to myself out loud. When there’s nobody close by.
48. I can’t sleep if it is too dark in the room.
49. When I am angry I tend to take it out on everyone.
50. Sometimes I am mean without a reason.
51. I don’t stick to the promises I make to myself, but I always keep my promises to others.
52. Caffeine makes me sick.
53. I wear glasses.
54. My eyes hurt because I spend too much time in front of the computer!
55. I am almost an internet-addicted. ALMOST.
56. I like swimming.
57. I believe in God, but I rarely go to church.
58. I am an orthodox.
59. I believe aliens exist.
60. I got my driver’s license 4 years ago.
61. I bumped into a tree the 3rd time I drove alone.
62. I don’t drive anymore, I am afraid to.
63. I rarely wear high heels.
64. I haven’t cut my hair in 5 years.
65. Someday I’d like to have a restaurant.
66. I like raisins and cinnamon.
67. Someday I will write a book.
68. I went to the movies every Sunday for 2 years.
69. I want to have 3 children.
70. Some say I am fun to be with.
71. I daydream.
72. I like waking up at night and realizing I still have a few hours of sleep.
73. At one point I stared to collect postcards.
74. I’d like to be a photographer.
75. I like Garfield and Tweety.
76. I am shy.
77. I don’t’ smoke.
78. I want to get tattooed.
79. I wish I had more courage.
80. I love the mountains more than the sea.
81. For many years I thought I hated my father.
82. I have a seven-year old brother.
83. Sometimes I feel like I don’t fight hard enough for what I want.
84. I hate lipstick marks on glasses or cups.
85. I adjust easily to almost any situation.
86. I can go quickly from one state of mind to another.
87. Close people’s mood influences me.
88. I’d like to have a VW Beetle someday (soon)!
89. My 18th birthday is the best I’ve had so far!
90. Christmas is my favorite time of the year.
91. I love to spend time in bookstores.
92. I love the smell of books, tobacco and coffee.
93. I still care too much about what people say about me.
94. I wish I didn’t.
95. I love taking pictures.
96. I rarely like the way I look in pictures.
97. I love the smell of rain.
98. I have an open mind.
99. I wish I dressed sexier.
100. I wish I knew how to play a musical instrument.

I need a few more things................

Thanks to sweetisu for the ideea.

I'm a loser baby, so why don't you..........

Almost one year ago I was singing " I'm a loser baby, so why don't you.........." on the corridor of my university while one of my collegues was staring at me in agony. God, I had so much fun!

We were waiting in front of the class. We had arrived there the first, but we didn't feel like going in. We had studied, but we entered the last to pass the exam. I know that we were all feeling the same thing. It was our last exam. We were all feeling it. My"gang", my friends, people I have shared 4 years of my life with. I felt like grabing them and holding them in my arms. And we were all sitting on the floor, laughing, telling jokes, sharing chips, singing. I kept singing that song and at one point I appologised to my friend and told him that I wasn't gonna stop, because I was having way too much fun. I could see that I was annoying him, but he didn't sat up from that spot. He said: "Oh,don't worry, you are not that bad and I am so tired. You keep me awake. You're like......adrenaline shots right now!" We laughed so hard.

As I said we were the last to enter the class. When the teacher saw us she started laughing and said that she was sure that we made all that noise. Of course, who else? It was fun. The exam was fun, because the teacher knew us all and didn't ask us too many things. I didn't want to leave. I get tears in my eyes just thinking about it.

There were moments when we were all silent and we were looking at each other like we knew what there was going on in our mind and soul but we didn't even need to say a word about it. Then we stared to laugh and make fun about everything and everyone.

I miss them. I miss those moments. It was so much fun.

My mom is ok. The test results came today and , thank God, she is ok. Last week the doctor told her that she had some nodes on the thyroid gland and , of course, I thought only about bad things. But today another doc did an ultrasound and told her that what she has is normal for her age.............so I am happy.

HELP ME!

Honestly............I need help. I tried something but it doesn't work.
How do I erase a comment on my blog? I used to have a "thing" that appeared, a sort of trash bin, but it has disappeared and I can't find it.
How do I put that "blogs you must read" on my page?
I really tried to do it on my own, but lately my brain doesn't seem to work as it should :(
HELP?!?
Thanks!

Late night ramblings

Today didn't start very well. I found out that my mom is not very well. She went to the doctor for her back and she found out that she has problems with her heart. Imagine the way I am feeling right now. I feel like I am drowning.
But God has a way of putting things back into their place.
I won tickets to the concert of one of my favourite bands, Directia 5. My mom signed me up for a contest and won the tickets and on Friday she was waiting for me at home with the "big news".
I didn't feel like going today to the concert but I had already invited my best friend(we are both single and decided to spend Valentine's Day together; better together, than sad and home alone) so I couldn't stay at home. And I am soooooooo glad I didn't.
Some people are blessed and I think that Cristi(the lead singer) has a gift. His amazing voice.And stage presence, the way he knows how to make his audience feel good.
Don't get me wrong, I know that there are many people in this world who have an amazing voice. But Cristi is special : sure, he is Romanian and has this incredible voice, not only when he is singing, but when he speaks. Don't worry, I am not in love with him, I am way too old for falling in love with a star.
I have watched this band for 10 years now and they still amaze me, Cristi's voice is better and better, and the lyrics leave me breathless.
It's past midnight now and I am very tired, but happy.....in a way.
I don't even remember what I have written so far.
I wish I could share with you a bit of what I am feeling right now: happy, excited about this wonderful show, my throat aches, my palms are pulsating, I am so proud of being in the same country with these guys. I must be going crazy, I wanted to write about something else. I am hungry.
Happy belated Valentine's day!

So......for the first time in my life I have to take care of myself. That means that I have to cook, wash, clean, shop. I have been home alone only once and I was on vacantion, so it definitely was easier. I woke up when I wanted to, I went out to eat, went out with my friends, went to my aunt's to eat or bought something from a fast food.
But now my mom is going to be in the hospital for 2 weeks and I am on my own. I am not actually home alone, my mom's husband and his son are at home, but it will be like I were alone.
But now I am working and I will have to wake up earlier to make my sandwiches, then from work I will have to go shopping, get home and cook something.
And , yes, my mom still makes my sandwiches in the morning, she still cooks for me and does my laundry, even if I am 23, very soon 24. She doesn't work and since she is all day long at home it is normal that she does all that for me.
And she has always been like that. Don't get me wrong: I now how to cook ( I won't starve to death), I can do my own laundry ( I often do that to help my mom), I clean the house although I am allergic to dust, I love to go to the market to do some shopping. But my mom is a bit overprotective and when I was little, even though she always asked for my help and made me some work around the house, she never let me do too much.
I am a bit scared because she will be in hospital and this hospital is out of the town and what if she needs me, or needs something quickly?
And again I am having these bad dreams about my dad and she is the only one who can calm me down and take care of me when I am having anxiety atacks.
I have the best mom in the world. I have never seen anyone like her, so good, so caring, gentle, loving, amusing, kind.
Thank you mom. I love you!

Finally me

For many years I have tried to please everyone around me. I would have done many things just to feel loved and approved and to have as many people as possible around me. I would have done anything to be liked and loved. And I was losing the real me. I didn't know who I was anymore.
And finally I found myself......I know who I am. Or at least I have a pretty good idea about it. And people around me are not very pleased about it. Some people always comment my behaviour, my reactions, everything I do is not good enough. I am so tired to please everyone. I have so many people around me who like me. My friends, my real friends.
Isn't my family supposed to suport me? Oh no, not my family! My aunt always has something to say about my behaviour: I am too atached to my mom, I complain too much about my headaches, I always do what my mom says, I read too much, I don't go out enough, I study too much( is that a bad thing?and I don't even study that much), why do I have pills in my bag(calcium because my body loses calcium very fast), why do I eat so much, why don't I wear high heels,WHY DO I BREATHE????????????I am so tired of her complining about me. She has no idea about how much I have suffered after the car accident, after my father's death.She has no idea. She doesn't know what made me who I am, what I am. Who is she to criticize me?

Doesn't a lightning rod on top of a church show a lack of faith ?

Dreams...........

I had this unbelievable strange dream.
I was in a dark place and I noticed a man in a spot of light. It was him, the man I love. And I remember thinking how incredibly sexy he is. And I saw him kissing someone. Surprisingly, I wasn’t that upset or angry, because I couldn’t stop thinking how beautiful and sexy he his. I remember staring at his face and his full lips that I couldn’t get tired of kissing.
And suddenly I noticed that he was kissing a man!!!!!!!!! Imagine that……kissing a man. I was surprised, I couldn’t believe my eyes. And, silly me, I couldn’t stop thinking how sexy he is.
He saw me and stopped kissing that man. He smiled and those beautiful green eyes gave me shivers. I remember feeling that even in my sleep.
I thought that I could compete with a woman, but how could I ever compete with a man?!?
All day long I had a strange feeling and I couldn’t stop thinking of him.
My mom kept asking me what was wrong with me.
Anyway, thank God I got my dreams back!

No internet

I have some problems with my computer and I can't connect to the internet. So, for the last 2 weeks I haven't read my mail, my blog..............anything.
Sorry for not visiting my "friend-blogs".
I hope I will be back soon.
Kisses!
Do u miss me? Because I do miss you all.